A Mom’s Journey

A Birthday Soon, A Trip Soon, and Beauty’s Return

Most of you all know my beauty will not be returning for about two more weeks. She has to leave for the summer to go to the SD’s wife’s home. Not actually see SD because he actually lives in another state far away from  where the “supposed” SM lives. Who knows? Not I. I just smile and get thorough it as best I can.

Beauty will be home soon and the room is in order for her and all of that stuff. It hasn’t been touched since she left. No one is allowed to go in there. That is her PLACE and her STUFF. I have missed her terribly. She will inevitably miss my birthday which I am of course not thrilled about. However, that is a small price to pay to get them every other Christmas right? Yeah, I know. It sucks.

I am going to visit my home state soon. I need to take care of some business and the best way to do that is in face person to person. I miss my home state occasionally. I don’t miss the drama that is still there but, I miss certain family members and my best friend. The other day I so wanted to call my best friend up but, could not because well the time difference, schedules, etc.

So, I resorted to email once again in this new century. She is doing well and had some very encouraging words for my recent dilemmas. She wants to see photos from my weight loss but, I told her in due time. I want to take them once I get to my goal weight which is another 50+ pounds away.

Thank you to all of you for the encouragement. I know it sounds silly but, it helps. I now have cable internet and I will post photographs of that install shortly.

Until then.

♥O♥O♥O,

Mommy

LOL She reads my blog? Irony I tell you.

So, my husband told me today that I have nothing to be concerned about in regards to his family. He knows I am a wonderful person that will help anyone I can when asked. He has no problem writing off his F and S. He did say that he will not write off his M and nor could I because she is the pillar in which my husband’s whole character was defined. He is just like his M. Wonderful, intelligent and extremely modest and I think his M made him all by herself. He is nothing like his F or S.

Then he started laughing earlier about my blogs. He said, “You know my S reads your blogs right.” I said, “No, I didn’t publish it and no one knows what it is.” He said, “Trust me it isn’t hard to find. I have a tracker and who else in said city where S lives would be reading your really different blogs?” I said, “Well, she cannot understand my other website.” He said, “I cannot understand it either, you use two different languages.” I said, “Well, sometimes it needs to be done that way.” He said, “So, how bad is what you said yesterday.” I said, “Well, it is not that bad.” Hubby says, “I will ask pamangkin.” I said, “No, don’t do that.” “Pamangkin said, “Tita is my mama and I will not tell you what she says.” Hubby says, “Ok, fine I will ask my M to translate.”

EEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK HALT. Slow down. I love my MIL. The FIL and SIL are very mean and judgmental of me or I would like them too. One gets sick of being insulted and finally says enough. The problem with Hubby’s family’s first language is that there is one word for FIL and MIL and I hope she knows it isn’t about her. I am sure she will because of what it says further on in my post.

I play dumb well. I say, “I know nothing. I shake my head and say I don’t know. I say I don’t understand any of the language.” Very few people know the truth. My Ninang finds this hilarious as she taught me most things. She also thinks it is really annoying that the FIL and SIL would call and claim to care when they haven’t even visited the person in question one time in the past mtonths. Ninang says, “You know you are a good hearted person so, don’t let them ever make you question who you are and what you have become. You cannot help where you came from but, you can help where you go.”

So, I have worked really hard to better myself. I hope to one day be the type of M that my Ninang was to her children and the type of M that MIL was to my husband. I cannot say that I will ever be as great of a M as they are but, I will certainly try.

Today I reached the 20.4 pounds lost milestone. YAY! I am so excited. So, God is looking out for me and I have to keep on keeping on.

Until next time…. ♥O♥O♥O - Mommy

In-Laws Really Can Piss You Off?

WARNING: ANGRY POST HERE SO PG VIEWERS WALK ANOTHER DIRECTION!!!

MY FIL SUCKS LIKE YOU WOULDN’T BELIEVE! First of all, my personal life before I married their son has nothing to do with them nor is it any of their damn business. I already blogged about this on my other website but, since it is in Tagalog my loyal listeners will not understand it more than likely.

Ok, so I will say this. I cried today not because they are worth my tears but, because he had the nerve to insult me to another family member. The other family member happened to be a family member I was trying to help. One I care about tremendously and who I look at like a second daughter.

Yes, my daughter has not returned yet and I am missing her greatly. If she were here then I probably would not have been as close as I am to my cousin. In any case, I have bonded with my niece and was highly insulted and offended when I heard the things that the FIL said to the grandfather of my niece. I so wanted to curse them. Realized cursing them isn’t worth it.

So, I resulted to the use of email. I emailed and said, “We will have nothing more to do with any of you. My hubby can do what he wants but, none of us will ever go around any of you again.” I really hope he is pleased with himself. Him and his sorry ass daughter. Yes, the SIL is worse. She blamed me for her father and my hubby arguing when it was her damn fault. She is an idiot like that. Her own brother thinks she is an idiot. She then post pictures of them when they are younger, “When things were easier back then”. Yeah, because the family had to file bankruptcy because of her useless dream because she wasn’t good enough and never will be. I want to scream, “Hello BITCH, have you forgotten they did everything for you and nothing for my husband? Have you forgot who bought their house? Have you forgot how many credit cards your father has taken out and continues to take out in my husband’s name? Have you forgot who paid for your wedding? Have you forgot how much we have done for your family and you. Yet you have done nothing?” It wouldn’t do any good. Her dad and her are assholes.

I normally don’t write people off. I have stayed away from my husband’s family for quite sometime because I don’t want to hear their snide remarks about weight etc. I mean if you have children and bounce back into shape then so be it but, some of us don’t have that luxury. We have to work to support their spending habits. We have to work to prevent our credit from being ruined. It is a whole lot of fun marrying into debt. Seriously, yet I am the bad guy? Please.

My daughter loves my hubby’s dad. Too bad. He isn’t allowed around either one of my children. Not after what he said about them and me. Soon enough they will realize that pissing off the lady that married your son isn’t a good idea. Especially when she can make you homeless or make you live with your sister. If I didn’t love my husband’s mom so much I would be such a mean woman right now.

Done venting. Until next time readers.

On a good note: I lost another .2 pounds. Guess what that means.